mt soul waits

my soul waits

"i wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word i hope." psalm 130:5

for all of you in a season of waiting. its worth every single minute. Jesus is birthing something inside you that will flourish one day. may you be filled with HOPE today.

these two daughters were worth the wait. the husband and i waited for days, weeks, & months upon months for these little humans to enter our life. the hardest part was what the Lord took me through from the moment He started showing us we were called to adoption sooner than we thought. we had always talked about adoption like it was a fleeting thought that would one day happen. my plan was to have some children and adopt a baby from overseas. well thats not the plan Jesus had for us.

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so the convo of having a family started. every single time we kept hearing the Lord say "wait, i'm not releasing you to move forward."

month after month. we never felt like it was time but you better believe my heart was ready for a little babe. i knew Jesus was preparing me for motherhood and i started to question why we both didn't have peace about starting a family. around this time many of my friends started to announce they were pregnant & i'd start to notice EVERY SINGLE BABY around me. not fun. i remember crying out to God like i was telling Him things He didn't know.

then came the dream. | read the dream here |

after having the dream that we were adopting a little babe is when the waiting got real deep. real fast. i struggled for a solid two weeks - just weeping, crying out to God, & worshipping. it was the most intense few weeks of my life. Jesus birthed something deep inside me. i know a piece of it was adopting the twins but i also know theres more to His story.

"a father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling." pslam 68:5

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Jesus is the same yesterday, and today, and forever. i'm thankful for the waiting. as challenging as it may seem only good things can come from it. it might not look like you have visioned. "my plan" was nothing like i had thought but i wouldn't have it any other way. embrace the waiting. may your faith increase & may you live fully where Jesus has you today.

for those of you in the throws of fostering - LOVE like your little babe won't be there tomorrow. by God's grace i never struggled with giving these little ladies ALL of my love. i loved at the capacity that i knew how. He will give you all the grace you need in the process.

i love seeing Jesus show off.

let my ceiling be your floor. it doesn't have to be a scary process. we would do it all over again.

headband | brielasbowtique || gold pants | trendytwinscompany || shoes | nordstorm worth the wait shirt | handmade with gold fabric paint