let me start out by saying if you struggle to birth children -- my heart aches for you! i cannot even imagine the pain you've gone through. however it happens, you were made to be a mother. hang in there your time is coming. if adoption might be your plan B, meaning your plan for your life hasn't gone the way you desired then welcome to the party. God works in mighty ways. when we envisioned our family adoption was not our plan a. we were any normal family that believed you had to birth your own children before you could adopt a child. our vision has been just that, it was going to be this perfect little story with our children helping raise the adopted child.
welllllll it wasn't until Jesus turned our world upside down and told us we were to wait on having biological children |to clarify -- we have yet to try to get pregnant!|. we knew adoption was going to be the FIRST way we were to bring children into our family. a seed was planted so deep in our hearts that if we didn't walk out our adoption journey we knew we'd be living in disobedience to God and His word. i do believe Jesus has complete control over every single child and their birth order -- if we allow Him to reign. for your family an adopted child might come first, middle, or last. i'm here to just say s u r r e n d e r. adoption can be for everyone, it's just a matter of choosing to say YES and surrendering your children to Jesus.
november is national adoption month. we've had these precious twin girls since they were 12 days old. we adopted them through foster care when they were 9 months old. we are coming up on the one year anniversary of our gotcha day. our family has still been processing all that happened over the first year. Jesus always takes me back to the two weeks He changed my life. i remember telling Him no to the call countless times. i've been reminded of these words that were so confirming -- it's not about you & hunter, it's about these children and their calling. they have to be first. they have to be chosen. you are changing their destiny.
we tell our little ladies every single night that they were adopted, chosen first, loved so deeply, and hand picked to be in our family. now the vision for our family structure will be these adopted children helping raising our biological children one day. i've never birthed a child so i don't understand that kind of love but i have a feeling it won't look much different. there are many days that i forget they were adopted. last week as i was standing in Israel on the mount where Jesus left this earth and will return again, i was overwhelmed by the love of being grafted into His family. He didn't have to choose me but He did. i was chosen, i was adopted, my destiny has forever been changed. if you are questioning if you'd be able to love a child like you birthed them, just go ahead and stop. the love cannot be explained, it can only be experienced.