i'm not sure where this sweet little letter came from but thank you to whoever sent it to me. this last week i was cleaning out all the adoption paperwork and found this little blessing under mounds of papers. i remember reading it when we first started the process of foster to adopt with the twins. i absolutely lost it. ugly cry lost it. in a good way.
it doesn't matter how you become a mother.
it's a blessing.
the letter showed up at the perfect time with the sweetest little voice telling me that i was made for this. my whole being knew it too. i was made to be a mother & i'm overjoyed it was through adoption.
"once upon a time there were two children ready to be born. so one day they asked God: 'they tell us you are sending us to earth tomorrow, but how are we going to live there being so small and helpless?'
God replied, 'among the many angels, i chose one for you. she will be waiting for you and will take care of you.'
'but tell me, here in heaven, we sing and smile; that's enough for us to be happy.'
he said, 'your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you every day. and you will feel your angel's love and be happy.'
'and how are we going to be able to understand when people talk to us, if we don't know the language that men talk?'
'your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweetest words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.'
'and what are we going to do when we want to talk to you?'
God said, 'your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.'
'i've heard that on earth there are bad men, who will protect us?'
'your angel will defend you even if it means risking it's life.'
'but we will always be sad because we will not see you anymore.'
'your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me, even though i will always be next to you.'
at that moment there was much peace in heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard, and the children in a hurry asked softly,
'oh God, if we are about to leave now, please tell us our angel's name.'
God silenced all fear when he said,
'your angel's name is of no importance. you will simply call her mommy."
last year was my first mother's day with our little ladies. i can't believe how teeny tiny they were. just shy of 3 months old & in the throws of fostering. we had no idea what was going to happen with our little family in those days. i held on to the fact that these two made me a mommy & there was no going back!!
happy early mother's day to all the mamas out there! even if you are dreaming of the day you hold your sweet baby - God's made you with a mother's heart. i did lots of waiting, crying, and yearning & i'm so thankful it happened in the most perfect timing. praying for all of you mamas yearning for your day to come. it's coming.